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I need a day to collect my thoughts on the next track. I can see now that it’s this Song Cycle that opens the memory gates. Don’t worry, there is music today. An outtake. Scroll down.

So, we have Doubt, Denial, and now, Desperation.

I didn’t really realize until now that Doubt and Denial are actually 2 different stories. Both have a similar `upbeat’ start and resolve to loneliness. This seems like a movie with 2 subplots that eventually lead to one place: That place is Desperation.

When we start the journey through the next song cycle, be forewarned. This one is the most uncomfortable of them all. I don’t even need to hear the tracks to know what lies ahead. Heavy emotional and music ambitions were laid out. And they all were crushed by their own weight. Filled with such hatred, self loathing, self pity, grandiosity and awkward jaunted ideas.

But at the same time, there is a small adventure or 2 that alleviate the brooding nature of these songs. If anything, they do illuminate the fact that I do go to great lengths to get even the most marginal of ideas realized.

Orchid Outtake: Subspaced

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In my 3^rd attempt to re-record `Orchid,’ I had this grand idea of adding fluff tracks to pad out the album. The one track that I actually did was called `Subspaced.’ It rested in between `There’ and the next track `Entranced 3.0.’ It is functionally useless. It does nothing to move the `Orchid’ story along. But if you like the sound of vintage synthesizers doing trite Philip Glass meanderings, then this track is for you.

Otherwise, this track does not belong on `Orchid.’